Unspiration

Having a hard time drawing any kind of inspiration from anything. It seems like the very moment I become inspired to write a song or anything, something pops up and blocks it in it's entirety. Usually it's some kind of craziness or chaos that I have no control over. I don't know what to do but I have to do something soon or I'm afraid I'm going to lose my creativity. Infinite sadness. 

Kicking and Screaming

Last time I do this. I'm done for a while. I don't need these things and I don't want to become like some people I know who have a real problem with it and let it rule their lives. I wish I could find a solution to the pain I am in though... Please pray for me.

Dz

I struggle with clinical depression. I don't know why it hits me, but most of the time it comes out of nowhere. Nothing really brings it on, it just happens. I love my life when I'm not in one of these slumps but when they come it's like I feel suicidal or something. For the record, I would never kill myself, but I can't say that the thoughts don't cross my mind during these bouts. Before, I didn't believe that clinical depression existed, but now I understand that it does in fact exist. I can name a hundred things that could be bringing me down right now, but I know it's not really any one of them. It's just something that hits me randomly. Maybe I am cursed. Who knows. 

I'll always be "Bean"

Wretched. Summarily summed up Summer of 99'. Why do you HAUNT my dreams still to this day? It's been 13 years. What are you trying to tell me???

Zero Asumptions Please

Why the struggle for material gain? Is it an inherent part of the Adam nature for us to desire objects that exist only in physical space? I wrestle with this need to collect, gather, and store useless items that in the end will do me no good whatsoever. Nothing nutritious to the soul can be found in material possession, but yet I find some kind of pseudo happiness in the chase, the objective always being something I can hold in my hands and examine. I must break free of this thought process.

Please God Help Me

Moth Martyr