Unspiration

Having a hard time drawing any kind of inspiration from anything. It seems like the very moment I become inspired to write a song or anything, something pops up and blocks it in it's entirety. Usually it's some kind of craziness or chaos that I have no control over. I don't know what to do but I have to do something soon or I'm afraid I'm going to lose my creativity. Infinite sadness. 

Kicking and Screaming

Last time I do this. I'm done for a while. I don't need these things and I don't want to become like some people I know who have a real problem with it and let it rule their lives. I wish I could find a solution to the pain I am in though... Please pray for me.

Dz

I struggle with clinical depression. I don't know why it hits me, but most of the time it comes out of nowhere. Nothing really brings it on, it just happens. I love my life when I'm not in one of these slumps but when they come it's like I feel suicidal or something. For the record, I would never kill myself, but I can't say that the thoughts don't cross my mind during these bouts. Before, I didn't believe that clinical depression existed, but now I understand that it does in fact exist. I can name a hundred things that could be bringing me down right now, but I know it's not really any one of them. It's just something that hits me randomly. Maybe I am cursed. Who knows.